Lyrics

By James Calderwood except where stated.

Bear Up

As I stand here alone all I can see around me
Are clowns, so in love with themselves
Excuse me if that’s too precise
You’re well past taking my advice
So just keep on sniffing away girls

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And I hope that makes you feel real small
Your mind is your own cage and keeper
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For the population explosion how could you not blame her
She took the fun out of fear of being in love
The fun out of fear of being in love
And that’s why I think it feels so empty

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And I hope that makes you feel real small
Your mind is your own cage and keeper
If you find the key you’ll grow up tall

Bottle Of Delight

Stumbling home late in the afternoon
Puke stained suit singing this tune
I remember what I forgot the night before
The conversation that I had with the ever understanding bedroom floor

My master is the bottle and I’m a slave to it’s delight

Now is this my home or is it my brain
Trying to trick me has it won again
Familiar smells, familiar rooms gently swaying
An all to familiar voice shouting and screaming at me

My master is the bottle and I’m a slave to it’s delight

Is this true or was I dreaming
But didn’t she say something about leaving
Worshipping at the bar clears my mind
And now I seek the comfort, That special comfort of the liquid kind

My master is the bottle and I’m a slave to it’s delight

Desire

Answer, just one answer is all I want, and please try this time to be true
Did the past seem too distant or the future all too clear
When I faced your back was it out of fear
Try hard not to feel used for there’s nothing I can do

Keep me away from it all. To see you smile won’t break my fall
Passion’s burning, burning like fire. Keep me away from this desire

I now know that beauty is only skin deep you told me that it was true
Despite it all and because of it all, my goal is always out of reach
I now know that it’s not true. And I’m not yet through

Keep me away from it all. To see you smile won’t break my fall
Passion’s burning, burning like fire. Keep me away from this desire

Maybe this time it wasn’t even luck, I’ll just have to wait and see
Damning you won’t do any good. My mind says I shouldn’t my heart says I should
I’ve waited and I’ve seen, so listen to me

Keep me away from it all. To see you smile won’t break my fall
Passion’s burning, burning like fire. Keep me away from this desire

Answer and just one answer is all I got. And this time it was true
The past it has gone now it’s the future that’s here
I turned my back so you wouldn’t see the tears
Which were in my eyes ’cause I knew. I don’t desire you

Keep me away from it all. To see you smile won’t break my fall
Passion’s burning, burning like fire. Keep me away from this desire

Distraction

By Fred Bright

Picture a scene from a film, the one you’d want to live
Hold it in your arms for a second and be the one you can’t forgive
You and I were immortal until the devil inside of me
Drank once more and then again, not knowing who to be
And all the simple questions that I know have no answers
Were injected through the tears of light while I was wishing I was dead

And cupids fatal arrows pierce hearts that are divine
You can look in the mirror and see that Jesus Christ has died
And you have made your mind up that all the chances have been used
Four divided by infidelity leaves only one accused

Picture the sweat of a body as the scream of pain subsides
The rise and fall of expended life that only memory can survive
Trapped in a situation that screamed of déjà vu
You and I engaged in a kiss so strange and not knowing what to do
And who are you to tell me that I’ve committed a crime
When all I see is insanity and it’s running out of time

And cupids fatal arrows pierce hearts that are divine
You can look in the mirror and see that Jesus Christ has died
And you have made your mind up that all the chances have been used
Four divided by infidelity leaves only one accused

Jesus Christ this is dangerous
And I can’t see what’s ahead of us
I’m losing my mind like I’m losing my soul
And there is no soul left in rock and roll

Doublehead

In the cold light of day he soon realised that it wouldn’t go away
Schizophrenia is such a long word it’s said. And I’m here to stay

He screamed, get out of me. Please leave

His friends started calling him two faced, behind his back of course
But when they said they preferred his other half his self arguments became worse

He screamed, get out of me. Please leave

Mr Doublehead. Get out of me

It was the warm summer sunset when he realised that there was something wrong
That enemy within, now like a second skin, had had enough and was gone

He screamed, come back to me
Is it me, come back to me
And he screams, come back to me
Please don’t leave, oh please come back to me

Come back Doublehead to me

That Dunkirk Feeling

Demand action, demand all that you need
If powers what you’re after, then stick with me
Haven’t you heard I’m the new messiah
So demand action ’till you’re blue in the face

It’s so shocking, what they’ve printed about me
I think I’ll have to sue them, great prime T.V. time
Even more publicity
And it’s so shocking, c’mon keep on printing about me

But no more home truths

Aim high but always wide of the mark
You must obey, must obey
Aim high but always wide of the mark
You must obey, you must obey

Factory

With my mouth in my heart
I wake up in a sweat
Remembering what might have been
In my utopian dream

Don’t throw stones in greenhouses
You’ll only end up hurting yourself
The vision is clear but yours is misting
Everything I say you just keep a twisting

Remembering what might have been
In my utopian dream

I tried to be good
But it came out as God
What felt like a river soon became a flood
So if what I say comes out in a muddle
It’s because I want you, plain and simple

Remembering what might have been
In my utopian dream

The Greatest Gift

By Fred Bright

I am tired and I am lonely in this God forsaken town
The noise of silence is so nervously loud
The ticking of a watch or a car in the street
Is enough to make this poor boy shiver in the heat

Why can’t I be near you now, why can’t I touch your face
Your eyes I know are beautiful, but lost without a trace

Sitting all alone with cigarettes as his friend
I think of all my heroes’ and pathetically pretend
I am that man, the one that gets the girl
The one that is so far away living in a separate world

Your picture is on wall like a sentimental guard
Sometimes you laugh, sometimes you hide, but I always try too hard

So rest my imagination and consider the truth
He is a romantic and you have all your youth
Summer dreams and summer looms like the greatest gift of all
Tell her she is beautiful and tell her not to full

Why can’t I be near you now, why can’t I touch your face
Your eyes I know are beautiful, but lost without a trace
Your picture is on wall like a sentimental guard
Sometimes you laugh, sometimes you hide, but I always try too hard

Happily Mad

I don’t like to argue, but when alone with my thoughts
I want to scream at myself (to try and think)
To wake myself up (to make a change)
To kick me where it hurts
Then pray to change our luck
Then pray to change our luck

I don’t want to speak out, but when I’m in a crowd
I want to scream at them (to make them think)
To shatter their sleep (to blow a fuse)
To wipe the smug smiles off their face
Wave goodbye to our dreams
Wave goodbye to our dreams

Don’t get mad at me, don’t get mad at me
I just want you to be happy, so don’t get mad at me
You’ve got to come of age, you’ve got to come of age
I wrote this song for you, badly written but certainly true

You’re still mad at me, you’re still mad at me
I just wanted you to be pleased, but why are you mad at me?
I think you’ve come of age, I think you’ve come of age
I wrote this song to you but I don’t think it could be true

Hold Me Now

Hold me now, in your arms
I’ll rise to the bait of your feminine charms
But talking and talking
Won’t make you understand
I’d hate to love you and leave you behind

It’s the time of our lives

Please don’t cry, Please don’t cry
I have had my doubts from time to time
I’m sorry so sorry it came out this way
But shut up and listen to what I say

It’s the time of our lives

I’m Hit

See the fist, but wait for the smile
Here it comes rushing to my face
I’m it, I’m it, I’m it, But I’m hit

I’m falling and calling on bended knee
Don’t take me down here with you
I never meant what I said but say it I did
You know it hurts to be hit with the truth

My nose in the dirt, palming the sweat
Muscle taught, biting at the bit
I’m it, I’m it, I’m it, But I’m hit

I’m falling and calling on bended knee
Don’t take me down here with you
I never meant what I said but say it I did
You know it hurts to be hit with the truth

But don’t even the score
I couldn’t take that again
But don’t even the score

So you’ve evened the score
I can’t take it again
Not again

So here’s the twist, you missed by a mile
And now I’m laughing, laughing at your face
’cause I’m it, I’m it, I’m it, but I’m hit

I’m falling and calling on bended knee
Don’t take me down here with you
I never meant what I said but say it I did
You know it hurts to be hit with the truth

JK Rant

Oh God I’ve had it up to here with you
Your clothes, your face, your voice just grates and grates and grates
And you, you hypocrite oh was I fooled
White soul boy on the pull, which girlfriend is she on the pill?
Your pack of six will soon be full, but not of gold

As I’ve heard the words behind the backs
Give me fiction dismiss the facts
You can have it all, You can have it all

The words that I speak aren’t quite what I feel
Even my mouth can’t get that contorted, may the truth be distorted
Dope head or smack head it’s all the same to me
Blow by blow she’ll make you grow that I can guarantee
But into a man or a cripple you’ll just have to wait and see

As I’ve heard the words behind the backs
Give me fiction dismiss the facts
You can have it all, You can have it all

You see I’ve heard it so many times before
And I’ve seen it so many times before

I don’t have to explain myself to you, you know
The price was right but it’s you they’ve sold
I’d rather rip my tongue out than be told
Oh daddy darling daddy, I want that one
It’s gotta be pink so I can get turned on all day long
Now I’m in the driving seat but I think I’ve said something wrong

As I’ve heard the words behind my back
Goodbye to fiction this is fact
I don’t want it all, I don’t want it all
As I’m hearing the words behind my back
Goodbye to fiction this is fact
You can have it all, You can have it all

Mesmerize

Maybe it was just luck
I’ll have to wait and see
Maybe I don’t give a damn
But damn you damn you damn me
Melodrama is my middle name
It fuels my every thought
And unbelivable although it may seem
You’re all that had me caught

Mesmerize

I surrendered all my senses
Mesmorise me with your eyes

Mother Knows How

They walked up the hill hand in hand
Her thoughts were pure his were bad
She came back home a crying, he forgot to tell her he was only lying
How soon will her mother know

Now Jill has a plan for revenge
To finally get even with Jack
So she invited him up for a picnic and laced the well with arsenic
And told him to drink deep

But he’d been warned before and so he knew the score

Your mother knows how, your mother knows
Ask my dad he should know that your mother knows how

His face was smug when she told him to go away
Another win lad well done that’s what his father would say
The cacophony of the explosion made her feel quite ill
That she really meant to tell him she had mined the hill
Just like her mother had told her

Your mother knows how, your mother knows
Ask my dad he should know that your mother knows how

Erase him from your heart she said
Erase him from your heart she said
I’ve erased him for my heart as only mother knows how

The 17th 23rd

She saw him from the 17th floor
She cried out but he was gone
He found himself on the 23rd
Not wanting to stop what he’d begun

Please never make this change

Don’t want to loose more sleep
But he’s diving in so deep
His heart and mind can’t keep on taking
What he is feeling

And if he turned the tables he’d end up wrong
Just like so many times before
He tries to understand why she cries
But time may heal what he never thought he had

Please never make this change

Don’t want to loose more sleep
But he’s diving in so deep
His heart and mind can’t keep on taking
What he is feeling

Please never make this change

Spend & Learn

As the actress said to the Bishop, “This will only take a minute”
“You must be joking” he replied, “Less than five would hurt my pride”
She hid the sound of laughter by saying

It’s just a matter of time, and time means money
So spend as much as you can

As the jet roared down the valley, bombing reds camouflaged as sheep
The pilot saw angels up in the clouds, “I think I’ll join them” he said out loud
Waving goodbye from his ejector seat

It’s just a matter of time, and time means money
So spend as much as you can

They analysed all the moves and soon came to a decision
It’s a strange game in the way that the only winning move is not to play
Lets hope that they can keep a promise

It’s just a matter of time, and time means money
So spend as much as you can

I’ve seen him bear that cross so many times before
A cross of his own choosing, a cross of his wrong doing
He should have learned by now

It’s just a matter of time, and time means money
So spend as much as you can

Tidal Wave

You were in my dreams last night
You seemed desperate and anxious to know
I told you that when the dust dies they’d realise
That you weren’t trying to walk on water but to flow

It’s useless to try and fight the tidal wave of hope
It’s useless to try and fight when only nothing lasts forever
But I hope that you can prove me wrong

You will be on the screen tonight
Reasoning without force and calming the storms
I like you ’cause you’re different, or is it a dream
If this is a bluff then God help us now as we’re fit to burst at the seams

It’s useless to try and fight the tidal wave of time
It’s useless to try and fight when only nothing lasts forever
But I hope that you can prove me wrong

You will be in the hearts and minds of millions tonight
The wind from the shore is blowing a sea change
I like you ’cause you’re different, or is it a dream
If this is a bluff then God help us now as we’re fit to burst at the seams

It’s useless to try and fight the tidal wave of life
It’s useless to try and fight when only nothing lasts forever
But I hope that you can prove me wrong
When nothing like this can last forever
But I hope that you can prove me right

Time To Kill

Have you ever thought of the zero option
When you know there’s nothing left to loose
Give voice to your choice of complete destruction
Reaction glows brighter than a thousand words
Hit the panic button ’cause it’s back for revenge
Seek and destroy are a means to an end
Come hell or high water like lambs to the slaughter
I think I’d rather sink than swim

When it’s time to kill

Time to kill

We’re all killing time

Killing time

Touch Down

These last two days have been a revelation
I’m back is what I think I said
Feeling boxed in, out of time and out of tune
Was I glad to be alive or still wishing I was dead

Touch down

I’m not a buck an hour
That’s why I’m driving away
My mind is full of diamonds
You too will be great one day

My brother he was so right
Personality that is the key
So what’s the secret how could you do so well
Did he throw it all away because of me

Touch down

I’m not a buck an hour
That’s why I’m driving away
My mind is full of diamonds
You too will be great one day

I look back at what could have been achieved
Of a hero turned to waste
Who looked at me with spite in his eyes
Now I see tears of love streaming down his face

Touch down

I’m not a buck an hour
That’s why I’m driving away
My mind is full of diamonds
You too will be great one day

Very Little Point

By Jason Cheater & James Calderwood

“What’s the matter with you?” She said, she said
“What’s wrong with you?”, I replied
“All of a sudden I feel very quiet”

So very quiet, so very quiet
Very little to say, so very little point
And I said, and I said

“I know what you mean” She said, she said
“I’ve been there before”
“Eloquence in silence, so very clear”

So very clear, so very clear
But how could she know, could she know?

“What’s the matter with you?” She said, she said
“What’s wrong with you?”, I replied
“All of a sudden I feel very quiet”

So very quiet, so very quiet
Very little to say, so very little point
“Of a kin” I said. “But it can’t be the same”

“What’s the matter with you?” She said. “He’s dead”

When Fact Is Fiction

You may not believe me but here’s a true story
Only the facts have been totally changed
The characters are transparent to protect their identities
Stones have not been turned to try and name names

The one thing Gary wanted to solve his problems
Was a 12 bore shot gun to cuddle up in bed
But Bibi didn’t like it as it seemed to come between them
So she turned the shower on to wash some sense into his head

You may not believe me but that was a true story….